ahhhhh,what's the use of being optimistic & hopeful that somehow it'll work out?!??!? It always doesn't! I'm just setting myself up for disappointment yet again.
Its draining my perkiness awayyyyy...forget it.
New year's resolution : Don't do IT again!!
I need to learn to accept the harsh reality that its not gonna happen for a
very long time.
My stupid problem is that I can't stay mad at anyone for long,back to being optimistic. Pfft!! Especially when I look back on the happy moments in life we had. But I find it so hard to accept!!!! Why,Lord,why?!!!! I only get hurt. Help me get over it Lord.
I think I'm in over my head lah. Stuff & nonsense rite?
Bah humbug. I'm no saint. I give up!
