The past week has indeed been an emotional roller coaster for me.
In college, S was being an ass as usual....-.-
S actually told my English lecturer to his face that English class was not doing him any good cos its boring. I mean, even if you really do think so, don't embarass the man in front of the entire class lah!!!!!! I can't stand S's arrogance &
I'm-smarter-than-everyone-including-the-teacher attitude! So
`tak pas' as my English lecturer would say...grr!! & I think S is a sexist too...-.-
& yeah
michelle &
hui lynn, grrr I'm dumbfounded by the latest development in the rihanna-chris brown case...the latest news is R is back together with C.B!!! Doesn't the woman ever learn???!!! Pfft!!!
Okay on a more emo note,
Kiran's(college friend) parting words of advice last friday was something along the lines of some of her friendships in high school breaking off naturally now that she's in college,for various reasons...I can't be like u, Kiran...i wanna hold on to the friendship for as long as I can....I can hear her saying I'm soo naive right about now :P
Anyway, I feel that I wanna be naive for as long as possible, hoping that somehow the bonds we formed as friends won't just go down the drain like that. *snaps fingers* I feel that its plain insanity that I am always the one who has to keep the friendship going by calling you up,what's so darn hard about picking up the damn phone and calling me every once in awhile, even if you are
"very busy"?? But seriously, you really think I was born yesterday,huh?? I too am freaking busy with shitloads of projects & assignments from college BUT yet I don't make up
pathetic excuses like that, instead I make the time to call or hang out with my other friends,its not rocket science you know. Even if you talk over the phone for only 20minutes everyday with me or your other friends for that matter,its the effort that counts lah for goodness sake. & if u don't call but do other things to keep in touch, I'd still understand, but the question is, do you?!?!
I really
don't want our friendship to just die out here and now....in the past, I have been the `doormat' in the sense that I always make an effort to ensure our frienship lasts by calling you up just to chat, but I am not gonna be that person anymore...it just
hurts to know
you don't care. I keep praying every night that God will change you in some way, hope His message gets to you somehow. I keep holding on to those moments of happiness we shared together, but it's obvious
you don't feel the same, or else
you would have called a long time ago. *sighs...I guess I have to start accepting the fact that our friendship has come to a natural end, I wish you the best in life.
PS : Being the leader puts you in awkward & uncomfortable situations -.-
